...i noticed that i'm getting more and more used to writing in tlog, or, i'd better say, once i force myself to write, i can't stop already)) btw, when i wrote it i got so many stuff to deal with, so i've started the post at morning and am finishing it in the evening… and had to pause my work in evening, so now is next day's morning, yeah
right now (that was still in the first morning), when i checked my last post to see when did i stop my chronicles, and found out that the whole yesterday (very amusing and wonderful) was not described yet. so that's where i start.
yesterday morning we all got to sleep more, 'cause the company we were going to was so far away, that tom had to drive us there. the paccar company we've visited is huge truck makers, known over the world… and they gave us free baseball caps - with kenworth logo on it (i still didn't completely get the idea - why is it paccar if it's kenworth?..) and got to walk a lot on theшк plant and luckily i didn't wear my heels then (though i really intended to). it was so noisy and headaching and tiresome and i waited for the end of the trip eagerly. also i starved in that paccar, so when we went to "ivar's" cafe i was ready to eat anything (but i've ordered fish and chips with hot tea, just like everyone else did, and it was really delicious). the chief accountant or something like that Amy Novak accompanied us there and everyone was asking her questions. that's probably where i thought of the reason of my presence here ('cause i'm not studying at all, i'm just enjoying my time. and i remembered how i wondered to see myself number 7 on the list (it's six of us, yes, but i'm here because of one girl refusing) because i wasn't talking much at lessons (wasn't at all, to tell the truth) and i didn't give them in even one of three essays they've been giving us all as homework, and i wasn't lider-like at all) and i'm so passive all my life, but i mom told me not to be shy and ask everyhting. i did promise to not be shy, but there's no questions at all that i want to ask, or somebody askes my question before i can even formulate it, so it probably lowers me in americans' eyes, but i can't do anything with myself to change it.
so, yes, after that pitiful, but tasty lunch we went home to discuss our week, which seems to be good for everyone.
see, that's so terrible, when i'm writing too late, that i don't even remember the order of events. but i hope i won't lie, when i say, that after discussion i'd played table tennis a bit and then we all together went to the space needle - center of downtown seattle and the local baiterek. yeah, pretty nice view, lots of photos we've done and nice company i had - i'm enjoying my life as i've said earlier. yeah, after that we went to imax 3d 'amazing spiderman' movie (and i have to accept the fact that i was wrong about it (remember, i was insisting it to be fourth film in the line, but it turned out to be the first one in another line - 'cause there'll be 'amazing spiderman 2' and so on) so sorry, bro, i was really sure that time, won't be so self-confident next time ^_~) and though boys refused to go (it was just me and inzhumarzhan who went to the cinema) i prefered trying out the imax to walking with them and now i'm not quite sure if i'm happy with my choice or not. well, anyway, we've met after the cinema was over and went home.
(yeah, with that postfactum writing i forgot to mention the epopee of finding the way there - we've used google maps (which, i probably didn't mention it yet, shows not only the route, but the needed bus at the needed bus stop in the needed to time and so on) and i found the route very simple - just two blocks from us take the #30 bus and leave at the space needle bus stop, so i didn't print the map. (also, i've forgot my orca card (like, to pay at bus, проездной-like thing)))) at home at first, and had to run to get it… oh, but i've made it in time) and everyone (especially aktan) were saying, like, 'you're the responsible one, if we get lost it'll be your fault'. the bus came about 10-15 minutes late (which is extremely long for this place) and aktan almost killed me with his questions, like, 'you sure it's the right place?' 'you sure it's the right time?' 'are you certain about everything?..', so i was all nervous - it's like my first experience of being in charge of something that important with my new friends relying on me, so i'd almost ended on that bus stop untill bus arrived. and it was easy enough to get there, but there came problems of getting back home - their buses are not always going the same route in both sides, like was the one we took, so we had to ask alex's iphone and wi-fi's google map for help. it was dark and scary with all those strange people (if you know what i mean) so we've bunched up, as we always do in the late evening (btw, the cinema only ended in 10 p.m., so, you see, it was pretty late at the bus stop, luckily, there were no strange people waiting for the bus) and prayed for safe and sound way back home)
so, on our bus home were yaoi-couple who shocked all of us (me too, not really shocked, but to show my friends i'm not different from them i made it look like i was shocked^^) and was even the theme of our next day's morning discussion. (oh, yeah, i was pretty sleepy out there that night, so i decided not to stand on ceremony and take a nap at tair's shoulder, which was pretty nice, i admit, and from that on i seem to have stopped assuming tair to be subject of my interest, just like good friend, but i won't give up so early and try to see out if there's some tiny bit of interest he holds in me)
so, continuing on the mainstream, the next morning's breakfast (the yesterday one's already) we had a pretty nice discussion, where i found out that aktan and inzhumarzhan are fond of naruto (actually, it started at some point, where aktan came into dining room and said (we were discussing series that moment) that he only watches anime, not series films, and when i looked him (i guess my face was mix of curiosity and unbelievingness) he agreed, that he only said that 'cause he knows that i'm watching anime. he also added that my eyes flashed as i heared it, and that would've made me not believe his following words about watching naruto and bleach if only he didn't prove his words with something like ban-kai posture and 'subete no chikara' words, that he wouldn't have remembered if not watching those animes)
then we've all dismissed into our rooms (and, yeah, forgot to mention a lot of stuff, actually. that's why i so love braсkets, i can fill them with so many non-mainstream stuff… so, the deal is that i gave aktan my adaptor the previous night and the morning i've been writing about i (woke up early as usual and had done a lot of stuff and my notebook batery went down without adaptor connecting it to the electricity, so i) went downstairs to play billiards. i've been playing for almost half an hour untill i've met so strange unknown woman, who came to get some food in the fridge. she asked me for how long have i been here, and when i said 'about a week' she greeted me and left. then came some strange man with a boy and they'd been doing something for a while, silently, and then left. that's when i thought of my room being open and i ran upstairs. on the main floor there were so many people, all of them unknown, and all our kz community was really worried about them staying, but, blessfully, they left about an hour or so later)
so, then we were staying at home all day - playing tennis and billiards and table soccer on the basement, than remembering about my adaptor and resuming my tlog post… oh, i'm so messed up with times, actually, and it seem strange to me, that i started that post only esterday morning…
so, in the evening tom took us all to his house for dinner, and the road was soooo long there, luckily i took my ipod with me, and all the way i was copying tair (tom drives us in a min-van with two from seats, three back and two uber-back, exactly on those uber ones me and tair sit) so it was pretty funny for me.
tom's house is situated in such a nice place, where the air is so clean and fresh, lots of trees create wonderful view and scenery, and the house itself is so cousy, i'd wanted to live in such place myself^^
but, we've stayed there till 11 p.m., which is terribly late for me, so i (though, i tried to keep a grip on myself) started falling asleep there already. on our way home, which took different road and was much shorter than our way there, i slept on tair's lap, also offhandedly making him face the fact, and that was such a nice nap, aww^^
then, when we finally arrived home, i got to my bedroom, put of all my clothes and fell asleep, remembering almaty, where i don't use pajamas in summer time.
today i woke up around 9 a.m., washed my head, played dragon age II, wrote that post, skyped parents, telling them about the chance of me paragliding today (but the weather didn't get well, so it was cancelled), also i ate breakfast, yes, and then, in 12 a.m. alex woke up (and we found that inzhumarzhan woke up too, but were lying in bed) and we all went downstairs to meet aktan and tair and eat breakfast (actually, lunch) together, and rught now i've come back up to probably get dressed, so that if we go somewhere i would be ready, yes☺. and now i've tried and found out that alt+ signs work in this tlog also, so they're gonna be appearing more frequently from this post on.
maybe we'll go somewhere, 'cause its sunday and paragliding's off, and i'll try to write more often from now on, so that there'd be no chance of forgetting some interesting details☻
love you, bro ~♥

...when you don't comment my posts i seem to lose enthusiasm, but i'll try to force myself to write about each one of my days, so that i could easily remember that emotions and feelings later^^
I've checked right now, and it seems i didn't yet mention our yesterday's trip to greenlake. it was fun and a little bit tiring, but i really enjoyed it. we've went as a team, and we've made a circle around the lake itself, about an hour it took, and then went back home. and on our way home aktan and tair went to buy beer, yes, i help get it inside the house through the back door, yes, like a smuggler, but then i left. i actually wanted to chage my wear and come back, but i fell asleep, the moment my pajama was on me… so, i passed it out))
today i woke up pretty late, about 7 a.m. local, but got to the bathroom first - water was cold an both hot and cold sides. then i wanted to skype mom, but they broke the computer (as mom said later, during our phone call. it was because mom asked dad to download her an e-book, so that she could read in the plane on their way to israel (yes, btw, they must've departed today at 5 a.m., as i understood) but with that book a tremendous and dangerous virus downloaded to my computer (both me and mom were almost heavenly happy, that it was not our fault, 'cause otherwise dad would've killed us) and they couldn't turn pc on and get into the skype) so our dialoge was rather short in our strive to spend less money on mom's phone.
then we went to campbell company again, but today we had an interview (on alex's request actually, i wonder, who pulled her tongue, when she was asking it) with the financial department lady, and it was so tense and strained and we (i actually) didn't have any questions, so there were awkward silence moments, and i think she might've got an opinion of me being not very smart, 'cause i was just sitting and listening (and also she caught me drawing, but i tried to put some scientif sense into it, to make myself look a bit better), but i've made notes from time to time, yeah… than kurt came to take us over, and i was sooo happy to see him, ah, i thought of him as of a lifebuoy. he took us to the same conference room, we've been to yesterday, and, after answering some of alex's questions, explained us his monthly charts, which described how well the company is living up to the expectations (the whole thing is on a monthly basis) and, somewhy, i've almost dropped out of the whole conversation (my eyes were closing, i didn't hear the separate words in his speech, even my head almost dropped) and tried to keep at least not completely bored look, but my constant yawning didn't do any good for my attempts.
then we went to ace english classes (we ate mcdonald's on the bus stop of our bus transfer) and didn't miss the bus, but we were still too late (about 20 minutes, just like yesterday) and had a difficult time finding our teammates. but we've sat on the lawn for the first hour, and went to some bazar thing on the second, so it wasn't entirely bad… actually, i start to think whenever there's not only alex as my company, i'm ready to go anywhere. so we had two transfers on our way home, but it was worth it. when we came home, i had some rest before dinner, and after dinner i went to the basement floor, where boys live (i was not anyhow interested in boys, though, 'cause they both were upstairs, so you can't even think of this option as possible)))) to play billiards. and after a couple of games aktan joined me and, yes, surely he bet me. than he invited me to play table tennis, and it was so much fun, really! i've pretended to be, like, not knowing hoe to play, but having played before. so it was like teaching me for him, i guess he enjoyed it, and we were playing and laughing and, like, yelling at each hit, and we were doing all of it pretty loud, so tair came out of boys' room with a camera and filmed it… i hope the mass won't see it, 'cause it's gonna ruin my whole reputation i've wasted so much time to build… but i liked it, i really enjoy it all and always in here. i guess, i'll miss them all later, 'cause now we live like a family, and then we won't even see each other, so it kind of dissapoints me.
also, i've got a thing for you to think about, when you'll be back to civilization and find some internet to read this post. i don't know, how much i'm supposed to tell you, but you are my only best friend ever, and i think some of unsaid things can become said now. the problem is, i noticed today, that the upper powers are willing to teach me a lesson, but i so stubbornly refuse to learn it. the events come in circle, and i think they will be untill i see what is the lesson here and what a i supposed to learn. the events are me, befriending two boys at a time, and i sort of like them both a bit inside, and try to show it the less outside (so that only he could see and understand it, but nobody else would notice a thing, 'cause i actually don't want to build relationships, but just to generate other party's interest in my humble self). it happened so since schooltime, from yunes and rasul, continued on (maybe i'm missing some steps here) nikita and lesha, then went on to uali and waru and now come tair and aktan. in all previous times, when i got the interest i needed (and usually it called on several following steps), i pushed the brakes hardly and started avoiding the interested one. the second one fell apart by himself usually, so i got lonely to some extent. i didn't hate it, or anything, and i guess could've stayed alone for some longer time, but then the circle repeats again. it's like some itachi used izanami on me, and i'm going in circles, up till when i'll find where my mistake is. i think, i got weaker every circle, so that now i even allowed myself to ask for help (which is supposed to be absolutely unacceptable!) and by asking for help, i expect you to give it to me. i'm even ready to wait - now i'm just on the most interesting stage, the one where i fight for attention and try to conquer boys. well, not both of them, but the one who is getting more and more ready to be conquered (which is aktan at the moment, tair doesn't seem to have any interest in my huble majesty). so, if only it doesn't get out of my control, i still have plenty of time…
will be hoping for you to find wi-fi somewhere, try neighbouring dachas, maybe it's not such an ass, as it seems to be… miss u a bit, bro… hope you won't ignore me…

...later today we went to campbell/nellson company, as i've probably mentioned in previous post, and that was… yeah, that was. there were high-lights and low-lights, coming first with high-light that we could easily get there ourselves (me and alex; me with maps i've prepared yesterday evening) and could see the company work (campbell deals with cars - retailer for nissan and volkswagen, car service, selling used cars and special parts). the low-lights began later, starting with the excursion on the company, where we were meeting every worker and at least one of them was… 変体やろ, staring at me, even half-wrinkled me, ugh! and he was so disgusting, and old, and fat, and i don't know, maybe married, (the most important was his disgusting characteristic) and it (meaning that person) ruined me the whole impression of their company in general. though, one of two brother-owners of that company was pretty nice and kind and answered all our questions, and he was once handsome, in his 20-ies or so, so it was a nice conversation that we'd had.
but surely, then came the next low-light, when we had to go to another part of the city for our english classes, and we took the right bus, but we didn't know where to leave it (yes, my arrogancy stopped me from printing the map from campbell to english class) and we had to ask where is the right bus stop. And then another low-light was that the bus we chaged to (oh, yeah, we got of the first bus to switch to another one) was terribly (on american standard) late! we were starving, and there was a mcdonalds in a couple of feet, but on the schedule bus should've arrived in 7 minutes after we got to the bus stop, but it really came in, like, 20 minutes or even more, and i got to hate the world a little bit. then, after we arrived on the needed bus stop and had to walk, like, 5 minutes, and we were already coming up late, alex said, she's gonna eat to not have a gastrite, but, the fuck! you won't get illness if you miss your food time once, fuck! that really pissed me the hell up, but, she already was ordering a hamburger, so i've decided to eat to… but the fucking hell!!!, i was two times earlier finished eating than she, and when she got, like, two bites left, we were infront of the necessary office already, so she stopped to finish and spent on last two bites as much time, as i've spent on the whole burger… (well, yeah, i'm embellishing things up a bit, but i really finished faster) we were 25 minutes late! i hate myself for being so much late!!! and i hate alex three times more - she was late also, she was the reason for us being late, and she made me hate myself. but i'll have to work with her three following weeks and i guess arguing is not quite a good method for doing things in such situation… when we've met tair and aktan and inzhu and marzhan, i felt so much relief, i was almost ready to hug them all… maybe alex alone is not the best company for the whole day… if only i got paired up with tair or aktan, uh… now, things're gonna get better as we're all together and we're home (but maybe it will worsen tomorrow)
oh, and yeah, i get to like aktan more and more, as if he really was our groupmate (but he's from third course, and i always feel some wall between my course and all others), and maybe when we're back to KazEU i may continue talking to him. mom will be really glad that i'm "communicating" and not isolating myself… i'm pretty much enjoying it too, you know! i feel myself somewhy unusually… normal… compared to my "previous" self… i like myself both ways, but the way i am right now is new and i'm curious to see som more aspects of it)))

1. right now exactly is aikido. The last month I got so very attached to people and the atmosphere in there, I got used to having another, and another, and yet another chance to do the technic correctly and not feel myself miserable just because I can't make it. Igor'-saaaan… T_T
1. for the time being is my parents, I was so used to seeing them in mornings and evenings, picking up their calls during the day, just hearing their happy voice was… tee-hee-hee, just remebered them and they called me on skype x)
2. you, bro, 'cause even if we don't meet often (and last time we started to meet pretty much often, taking our whole day to enjoy each other's company, yes-yes), I know, that I can go to your place and find any kind of help (moral and edible^^) and be happy again)))
3. my adaptor, which someone impertinently stole from my notebook. but, I guess, I'll ask crewmates before complaining to our bosses…
4. europa+tv channel on my wide screen tv, singing and showing clips to amuse my majesty)))
5. maybe I miss my stationary PC, 'cause there I had a great saving at Skyrim, but I doubt it really matters now…

Да, все гораздо лучше, чем я себе представляла)) тут тихо и спокойно, и никто не мешает, разве что прохладно, но и это не такая большая проблема^^ проснулась я по местному времени в 5 утра, но заснуть назад не вышло, да… к 9и должен подъехать гоетсч, походу, распланирует день на экскурсию по городу (которую мы вшестером вчера сами себе организовали) или ознакомлением с чем-нибудь, что нам предстоит делать…
В любом случае, настроение классное, три недели провести в ситуации "почувствуй себя героем американского сериала про студентов" представляется для меня очень даже неплохим шансом расширить кругозор и, возможно, использовать новые данные в своих текстах ^_^
няняняня, пойду пошарюсь в холодильнике (кстати, нам сказали, что все в доме находится в нашем полном распоряжении, вт.ч. холодильник, в котором можно шариться в любое время суток^^)

Which, truth be told, seems to never appear on the plan, 'cause we're staying at some sort of cottage, with lots of other students, though, and some sort off bosses - Laura lady and Didn't-Remember-His-Name man. It's pretty well, though my crewmates don't seem to enjoy the whole deal - always complaining on how these religious koreans gather up on fridays. By the way, yes, it's some kind of christian fraternity (I personally assume that it doesn't change the matter), but we've got to stay in personal rooms (well, me and Alex only though) with free wi-fi and 2 meals included into the cost.
Yeah, that seems to be to much of a talk about where we got to live, instead of speaking of how we're gonna make it.
And it somewhy seems to me, that we're gonna have a lot of fun here! It's just the evening of the first day, but I already think I know everyone (of those I came with, of course) for ages! It's so really funny just hanging around those guys, it's nowhere around Nasty's crew - here we all laugh, don't mind each other and, don't know how to explain it, well, feel familiar, maybe. Probably, it's just the threat of unknown environment that unites us together, but I'm gonna enjoy it as long as I can!
But don't you think I'm gonna forget about you or anything like that, bro! Everybody understands that they are just for time, not more than two years, I assume (they are all my university groupmates, remember), but seeing how long we're being friends with you, bro, does make me wander if you're the only my best friend ever, don't you think so?)))

Hell yeah! The KLM flights are so damn good! The comfort, the food, even organisation of boarding are all perfect! (well, it may just seem so to me, after MAU and havoyolari)
Though there were no free wi-fi in Amsterdam, now, sitting in Portland, I feel almost great)) The biggest ever problem I could've imagined (yeah, dad warned me about it, but it still happened to occur unexpectedly) is socket inconsistency… I can't charge my notebook with those damned three-hole sockets, and only one bloody hour of work left… So, this is my first and last note from Portland… When I arrived in Amsterdam, I had so many words and emotions I wanted to describe in my tlog, but now I only remember it was all great ^_^ I'll try to be online wherever I can, so you could contact me, bro)) and mind 13-hour time difference, if it's 12 o'clock at your place, it's 11 p.m. in Seattle)) Though, something tells me, I'm not gonna be sleeping at such time…

My plane is friday morning, my arts lesson is 4 p.m. but now is bloody afternoon, and I have nothing to do, but to sit in vk, watch europa+tv and maybe read some book… Yes, great idea, that's what I'm gonna do - read my manga books, we've bought yesterday!
Hell yeah!

今日のトレーニングはとってもよかったです！
この意味で、イゴルさんが大好きです！！！
ニャーン

Все, финиш, пора приветствовать старость… На пляже девочка назвала меня "тетя" и я поняла, что молодость-то уходит… Вспомнила, как я сама была ее возраста, какие все были большие и взрослые… И вот теперь меня зачисляют во взрослую категорию… как же все мимолетно в этом мире…